We're okay~

Maybe not great, definitely not perfect... But we are Okay~
This is the thing I keep reminding myself daily as I struggle to remember that I am still me even if I can't do the things that I used to be able to do. Even if I never am able to do them.. I am still going to be okay~  

It only takes a moment...

In a moment you turn around and life has changed. I used to be a girl who wished she was married and had babies..I was that girl for a long time~ then in a blink of an eye that changed.

Then I was a girl with a new husband and a baby on the way.

Then I was a mommy who worked and a wife who was always disheveled.

Then I was a mommy who was sick and so pregnant with a husband who was about to loose his job.

Then I was a mommy with a husband who was working 85 hours a week. I had a husband who worked so much and was under so much stress that he lost to much weight that myself and others were worried for him.

Then I was a mommy who had two little ones and was pregnant and had a husband who was working at a good but boring job.

Then I was a wife who's husband was lied about. My two little ones a baby and hubby all needed a strong person to rely on. I needed a moment to scream in my pillow.

Then I became a teachers wife, and mommy to more than my own.. Our friend Emmett came to us. We worked that way for a long time..

Now I am the Mom to three school children and the wife/girlfriend to my Hubby AND,  he and I are the entertainment for our friend Em..

It only takes a moment for your life to turn around and you become a different person, one that you never knew you could or would be.. I hope that I am ready for whatever moment comes next.

Valentines Day

Our kids gave out these fun V-day gifts to their classmates.



This guy was asked at School if I dressed him ??
Nope this is all him! ;) The best Helper ever~


Her are the kids with their Valentines from Dad
(and Mom) the girls received beautiful necklaces
and Sam had a new Box Car W/ track cleaner!
(That is big stuff for a train guy)
Mom (me) had Dad pick up candy for them.


One more crazy shot ;)

Here I am ready to go into have an MRI. Not as restful as I had prayed for.
Next time I will ask for better medication! lol

2010 Year in Review

2010..
I remember when I was in 3rd grade in school and we talked about the years to come And I learned how old I would be in 2000, 2010, 2020 and so on..

I thought 40 was SO old. We were given books to right down and paste in from catalogs all the things we thought we would want. I planned everything I wanted in life and where I would be:)

I don't have the book any more but, I am sure it looked very much like THIS~ :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLRWmeklb_k
We had a Happy 2010.. I do not feel old~

Merry Christmas

Every year when Christmas times comes around I think to myself..
"Why didn't I work all year on getting things ready and purchased.."


I think, "why am I not the one who sends homemade Christmas cards the day after Thanksgiving."
Better yet...how come I don't even keep a list of who I sent cards to last year... ?



I feel Grateful when last years dresses still fit the girls..
And pray they don't get taller,
at least till after the winter so they can wear them every week!



I wonder, "Who is in charge of all the celebrations?"
Then I look around for the Mom.
You know.. the one who will make it all happen and even make it look effortless~

Then I remind myself..
IT'S ME!



(With a LOT of help from a loving Father in Heaven)



I am really good under pressure..
Things will be fine and our family will love whatever I do~
Because in Their Eyes I am perfect! (well..mostly)
So I need to just go with the flow..
I have to remember ..The only person I am competing with.. is me.
and I am good~ :) (well.. lol Mostly)

PS.. SO ARE YOU!

Merry Christmas~

Portrait by a Friend!

I have this pal.. Kristen, She is Fantastic! We worked together in or Church helping 8 to 12 year old and now again we work together with 12 to 18 year old gals.. SHE is a BLAST~
You know what else she is.. a Photographer!
That's right she is one of those gals who is Unbelievably talented and making kids look cute and Adult's look youthful! I have longed to have a pal that could make my wrinkles SMOOTH and my teeth look WHITE~
She is doing a Portrait GIVE AWAY!!
Hope on over to her Blog and ruin my chance of winning! :)
(Really~ even if I don't win we are going to have her take pictures.. She is So great~)

You can see we need a new picture!

My poor family has issues smiling..haha oh well!

Finding old Pictures~

Have you ever found an old picture of yourself and wished
you could go back in time and tell yourself that you were OK~
I was given some old pictures recently and this one was
in the stack. I sure wish I could tell that girl to be happy..
I thought I was SO ODD..
I was to tall, to fat and already looked
"girlie". I LONGED to be one of the normal girls.
I hated how I looked~ I think this picture was one
of the early *I wish I was different* pictures..
If only we could go back and tell ourselves to enjoy~

PS..
I am OK and not going crazy..lol If you know me well
enough you know.. :) it's not a Crisis just a thought~